Falling Out Of Love

I thought there'd be no chance for me to forget you, but in fact there is
I thought you'd be really hard to forget, but it doesn't mean it's impossible
I thought I'd still cry at night when I think of you, but now I don't anymore

So that means I still love you, but it's a loving love
Like I have loved you too much until I fall out of love
So now it's gone, and it's replaced with the new kind of love
A friendlier, more beautiful, supportive love

Thanks for being such a terrific person for me
Thanks for teaching me things, for becoming someone I could lean on when I need it
Thanks for being a stubborn, witty, and amazing person to me

Tu me manques, je t'aime

Things I Won't Do For My Boyfriend

Hey people! Haha maaf ya udah lama ngga posting, hmm jadi hari ini gue mo ngepost tentang beberapa hal yg gaakan gue lakukan utk pacar gue (meskipun gue belom punya pacar).

1. Berhenti suka Lady Gaga. Ngga akan deh. Kecuali kalo dia membuktikan ke gue bahwa Lady Gaga berencana ngebunuh gue dan keluarga gue, barulah gue berhenti suka Lady Gaga. I mean, she's real terrific! There's no way I stop loving her
2. Berhenti makan sushi/sashimi. AAARGH! Gue udah cinta mati ama makanan ini. Biarin aja dia cengok pas gue makan atau dia mesen nasi/udon/ramen/apapun itu.
3. Bikin video porno. There's no need for me to explain this. It's perfectly clear.
4. Ngerokok. Haha. Ngga deh. Gue ngga mau mempersingkat hidup gue yang sudah singkat gini.
5. Clubbing. Yang bener aja.
6. Nge-drugs. Alasannya sama dgn kenapa gue gamau ngerokok
7. Berhenti suka sama Robert Pattinson. Oh come on! Every girl is allowed to have at least one celebrity crush, right? Toh gue jg ngga obsessed banget.
8. Berhenti menulis cerita. Meskipun cerita2 gue banyak yg gagal dan ngga dikirim, itu ngga berarti gue mau berhenti. Nyuruh gue berhenti sama aja dengan membuat gue kehilangan kesenangan kecil gue.
9. Berbuat kriminal. I don't want to ruin myself, my reputation, and my family.
10. Berhenti ngebaca buku2 karya penulis favorit gue (Raditya Dika, Jodi Picoult, J.K. Rowling, Meg Cabot, Stephenie Meyer). They inspire me to try to be better, even if my whole life looks like shit.

Which one is better: lying and hurting everyone or hurting ourselves and not damaging a lot of people? I don't know.

The truth is: I don't want to hurt anyone, even though I have always hurt anyone. The thing is: even though I've always hurt anyone, I don't want to hurt myself worse than hurting anyone. I know it's selfish. It's bad. It makes me a bitch.

About this, I don't want to lie to them too much. I don't want they to find out and see me as a disappointment because of what I do. I don't want my mother to look me in the eye and says that she has told me not to do so but I ignore her. I don't want to lose contact with you and your family forever. I want to stay as your family, your friend, your best friend.