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Hello people!

Hai teman2! Sudah lama tidak berblog ria haha. Dulu pdhl gue sering bgt loh ngeblog. Hmmm gue skrg udah jd siswa kelas XB SMA Labschool Kebayoran! :D ternyata di labschool seru loh meskipun............. PELAJARANNYA OMAIGAT LO HARUS TAU ITU MINTA DIAPAIN!!! *lebay*

Nah sekarang gue seringnya di kelas main bersama Putimas dan Nadya Zafira hoho. Mereka membuat saya tergelak-gelak setiap harinya (pasti pada gatau tergelak artinya apa). Terus mmmm sekarang gue lagi dlm masa transisi antara SMP dan SMA. Gue ngerasa masih sangat labil. Butuh pegangan.

Oh ya gatau kenapa gue lagi pengeeeeen banget punya kakak cowok atau adek. Adek sih mau cowok atau cewek terserah aja, tp pengen bgt punya kakak cowok yg baik, sayang, perhatian, dan menyebalkan juga. :_( nasib jadi anak tunggal. Hmm udh dulu aja kali ya post yg ini, mau belajar hihi. Eh ya aku mau bikin tumblr deh sepertinya, soalnya tumblr lebih gaul wkwk.

Bye, people! Lovelovelove

Perubahan

Di usia gue yang hampir lima belas, gue juga menyadari bahwa gue berubah, secara fisik maupun mental. Perubahan fisik adalah perubahan yang paling bisa diprediksi. Seperti anak-anak cewek lainnya, gue mulai menstruasi. Menarche gue pun di usia yang menurut gue cukup pas: sebelas tahun. Hampir dua belas malah. Dan gue pun sebenernya seneng karena pas masuk SMP, pas masih kelas tujuh, ada banyak juga anak cewek yang lagi dapet. Ini membuat gue lebih pede dengan kedewasaan gue, bahwa ternyata ngga cuma gue yang udah dapet.

Perubahan mental adalah sesuatu yang susah diprediksi. Di saat kelas tujuh, gue lumayan labil. Gue berubah. Ada sifat-sifat buruk yang akhirnya gue miliki. Dan gue tidak bangga dengan itu. Gue bermasalah dengan kakak kelas. Gue bermasalah dengan teman-teman gue sendiri. Dan itulah awal proses pencarian jati diri gue.

Di kelas tujuh, gue mulai gebet-menggebet. Buat temen-temen deket gue, mereka tau siapa yang gue gebet dulu. Gebetan serius pertama gue adalah seorang kakak kelas. Oke, gue jadi curcol. Tapi yaudahlah. Toh ini di blog, wajar kalo gue mencurahkan isi hati gue. Si kakak kelas ini, menurut gue, sangat ganteng dan sangat.... keren. Dan jujur saja, selama suka dengan dia, gue punya imajinasi-imajinasi yang bersifat sangat anak sekolahan. Kayak tiba-tiba kita kenalan entah gimana ceritanya, terus jadi deket, terus jadian, terus akhirnya gue dikenal sama kakak kelas lain sebagai "pacarnya si cowok ganteng yang populer". Ya, itulah fantasi gue. Sangat anak sekolahan.

Jujur aja, selama gue suka dengan dia, gue jadi termotivasi melakukan banyak hal. Mungkin nilai pelajaran gue tidak sebagus teman-teman gue. Mungkin penampilan fisik gue yang sangat Cina tidak akan menarik perhatian dia. Tetapi dia membuat gue pengen melakukan sesuatu selama di SMP. Dia membuat gue bersemangat ke sekolah, dan dia membuat gue bersemangat mengikuti LDKS, Orientasi, lalu akhirnya gue terpilih jadi calon pengurus OSIS. Dia membuat gue termotivasi mendapatkan jabatan yang sebenernya memang sudah gue inginkan sejak dulu: sekretaris umum. Dan meskipun akhirnya gue tidak mendapatkan jabatan itu, gue senang bahwa gue pernah mencoba mendapatkannya. Dan sampai saat ini, gue bersyukur atas semua itu.

Diversity

This is a poem I wrote related to the anarchy I saw on TV. Couldn't we treat diversity with love? Should differences be something that makes us do bad things to others? I believe we could treat diversity with love, and I believe we should treat everyone nicely, even though we are all different.

There are things we cannot avoid
That comes from diversity
That should be treated with love
Could we fix it,
The youth and the energetic?

All of us are special
In a creative, beautiful, different way
Us complete each other
Hold hands, not looking at diversity

Why do you tear us apart?
For God created us all the same
Breathe the same air
Stand on the same earth

A memory came to my mind
Of what happened years ago
In unity we hold each other
Respect, love, and confidence
We are all together, no matter what
They wanted to help us
Though nobody thought they wanted to
Did you see that?
Could you feel it?

So why do you break us apart?

Speechless - Improvised Lyrics

I wrote the Lady Gaga song Speechless in a different way. In a way that could express myself. NO ONE may copy this and claim that this is the product of their creativity other than me and/or Lady Gaga herself. And no one may sing this improvised lyrics without my knowledge and permission.

I can't believe what you said to me
Last night we were alone
"He threw his hands up
Baby he gave up, he gave up"

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your eyes in confidence
In your tight jeans, with your long hair
And your eyes behind the glass

"Could we fix her if she broke?"
But is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again
Oh, boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless
Will I ever love again?
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I can't believe how you talked to me
With your lips in cherry red
You popped my heart seams
All of my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe what you did with them
Though we could see the outcome
He's gonna get you and after he's through
There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love, so baby
Raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts of
All my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again
Oh, boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless
Will I ever love again?
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left us speechless, so speechless

And after all the fuss and the muse that we've been through
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and the girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?
If I promise, boy to you

That I'll never talk again
And I'll try to love again
I'll keep to write a song
Will always sing a long
I'll try to love again

So speechless
You've left me speechless
So speechless

Will we ever talk again?
Oh, boy, why you so speechless?
You've left us speechless, so speechless

Some fuss may come and go
But you choose not to tell me
Why you so speechless?
Oh oh oh

Falling Out Of Love

I thought there'd be no chance for me to forget you, but in fact there is
I thought you'd be really hard to forget, but it doesn't mean it's impossible
I thought I'd still cry at night when I think of you, but now I don't anymore

So that means I still love you, but it's a loving love
Like I have loved you too much until I fall out of love
So now it's gone, and it's replaced with the new kind of love
A friendlier, more beautiful, supportive love

Thanks for being such a terrific person for me
Thanks for teaching me things, for becoming someone I could lean on when I need it
Thanks for being a stubborn, witty, and amazing person to me

Tu me manques, je t'aime

Things I Won't Do For My Boyfriend

Hey people! Haha maaf ya udah lama ngga posting, hmm jadi hari ini gue mo ngepost tentang beberapa hal yg gaakan gue lakukan utk pacar gue (meskipun gue belom punya pacar).

1. Berhenti suka Lady Gaga. Ngga akan deh. Kecuali kalo dia membuktikan ke gue bahwa Lady Gaga berencana ngebunuh gue dan keluarga gue, barulah gue berhenti suka Lady Gaga. I mean, she's real terrific! There's no way I stop loving her
2. Berhenti makan sushi/sashimi. AAARGH! Gue udah cinta mati ama makanan ini. Biarin aja dia cengok pas gue makan atau dia mesen nasi/udon/ramen/apapun itu.
3. Bikin video porno. There's no need for me to explain this. It's perfectly clear.
4. Ngerokok. Haha. Ngga deh. Gue ngga mau mempersingkat hidup gue yang sudah singkat gini.
5. Clubbing. Yang bener aja.
6. Nge-drugs. Alasannya sama dgn kenapa gue gamau ngerokok
7. Berhenti suka sama Robert Pattinson. Oh come on! Every girl is allowed to have at least one celebrity crush, right? Toh gue jg ngga obsessed banget.
8. Berhenti menulis cerita. Meskipun cerita2 gue banyak yg gagal dan ngga dikirim, itu ngga berarti gue mau berhenti. Nyuruh gue berhenti sama aja dengan membuat gue kehilangan kesenangan kecil gue.
9. Berbuat kriminal. I don't want to ruin myself, my reputation, and my family.
10. Berhenti ngebaca buku2 karya penulis favorit gue (Raditya Dika, Jodi Picoult, J.K. Rowling, Meg Cabot, Stephenie Meyer). They inspire me to try to be better, even if my whole life looks like shit.

Which one is better: lying and hurting everyone or hurting ourselves and not damaging a lot of people? I don't know.

The truth is: I don't want to hurt anyone, even though I have always hurt anyone. The thing is: even though I've always hurt anyone, I don't want to hurt myself worse than hurting anyone. I know it's selfish. It's bad. It makes me a bitch.

About this, I don't want to lie to them too much. I don't want they to find out and see me as a disappointment because of what I do. I don't want my mother to look me in the eye and says that she has told me not to do so but I ignore her. I don't want to lose contact with you and your family forever. I want to stay as your family, your friend, your best friend.

Alejandro

This is the video of Alejandro. After watching it for two and three times, I finally enjoy it :D. Unlike Bad Romance and Telephone, I first found it hard to enjoy due to its dark and mysterious themes. But I LOVE it!

to whom it may concern

Was it me? Was it you? Was it us? Was it anyone else? I don't know. I may never know. I'm sorry for doing things that hurt you. I'm sorry for being selfish, being a bitch to you and to anyone else. I'm sorry for doing things I'm not proud of. I'm sorry I wasn't a good friend. I'm sorry if I back-stabbed you. I only thought of myself and not of you. I was being purely bad. Maybe it really was me. If nothing ever happened, would the end be better, worse, or just the same? Dear whoever this may concern, I only hope you'd forgive me, and we could be better than we are now. I hope we could still smile to each other than just looking at each other for a second and looked to another direction. I'm sorry. All I could say was I'm sorry.

Random Stuff

Hey people, udah lama ngga blogging...... Pokoknya intinya gue udah lulus tinggal nunggu ijazah. Hasilnya jujur aja agak mengecewakan tp ya sudahlah mau diapakan lagi, dan lagipula gue udah punya masa depan di... Labschool. (agak ngga bersemangat? Like I care :p)

Oke, skrg gue lagi di rumah opa-oma gue di Cimahi, pasti pada nggatau deh dimana haha anak muda jaman skrg tidak tahu jalan (?). Pokoknya skrg gue lg ama adek2 sepupu! Haha happy ga jelas. Udah ah. Bosen. Intinya adalah ini adalah post yg sangat random. Kenapa? Karena ini memang random! -____- ngga ngerti? Gue juga

random

Hello people, sorry I haven't posted anything for a very long time. Today I'm gonna write a little bit of idea I had in mind.

After reading in some website that Lady Gaga's Bad Romance is actually pretty gothic and dark, I felt like: "Oh, my, I think I should make something gothic and dark." And it led me to start writing a story entitled... okay I haven't given it a title.

However, the story is gonna be a dark romance, and I admit I am inspired by Wuthering Heights, The Pact, and New Moon. Yes, all of them are somewhat dark love stories, and although I haven't finished reading Wuthering Heights I already love it. Oh, and also I am inspired by Romeo and Juliet as well! I mean, Heathcliff and Catherine's love never fade even though they can't be together and everything around them is very dark. The deaths of Romeo and Juliet is the one that inspires me. The part where Steve (I forgot the name) dies of suicide in jail is quite inspiring.


So, can you guess what kind of story I'll be writing? :)

Gosh It's Been A While!

Hey people! Aduh gila gue udah lamaaaaaaaaaaaa banget ngga posting apapun... I've been very very busy these days... I AM WAITING FOR THE ANNOUNCEMENT OF THE STUDENTS-TO-BE OF LABSCHOOL KEBAYORAN SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL! Wish me luck, okay?

Hmm gue kemarin nonton film Percy Jackson & The Olympians: The Lightning Thief bareng bokap dan nyokap di Plaza Senayan. Awalnya gue mo nonton Valentine's Day tapi kan ngga lucu nonton gituan ama bokap -__- jadi akhirnya nonton Percy aja. Ternyata it was realllyyyyy good! I mean, like, it was cool! Gue suka banget, terutama ama si Grover haha. Tapi ternyata menurut nyokap gue filmnya ga sama dgn bukunya. Ayu dan Pinka juga berkata demikian.

Kalo menurut gue pribadi, jangan samakan film adaptasi dengan buku yang menginspirasinya. Film dan buku itu adalah 2 hal yg sangat berbeda. Ngga mungkin sebuah film mengadaptasi suatu buku secara utuh alias 100% sampai dialog2nya dan settingnya persis sama. Menurut gue, selama ngga bertentangan dengan isi bukunya, itu gapapa. Gini deh, bayangin satu buku isinya kira2 300 halaman lebih, dan isinya tuh settingnya ga hanya di rumah si tokoh utama yang misalkan di Rhode Island, tapi juga di Vegas, Seattle, Vancouver, trus tiba2 di Manchester. Terus misalkan tokoh2 pendukung di bukunya ngga cuma beberapa, tp ampe belasan atau puluhan. Itu kan susah juga.

Selama ngga keluar dari pakemnya ya keanya sih gapapa. Dan jujur aja, buat apa sih ngomel soal gituan? Could we even make a movie that's close to it? Bikin film itu kan susah. Hargailah yg udah berusaha. Kritik boleh tp gausah ampe ngomel2 jugalah.


Okay sekian dari gue itu dulu yaaaaaaaa soalnya pasti gue gaakan sempet nulis2 lagi. Bye people! Love you all! And wish me luck! :D