Indonesian and Kathy Everett

Tired of using too many English. Now I'm gonna write in Indonesian.


Haha gue lagi mikir keanya kok gue kebanyakan pake bhs Inggris ya, yaudah deh pake bhs Indonesia aja aaah mulai sekarang. Bhs Inggrisnya dikurangin tp gue bakal tetep nge-improve bhs Inggris gue, krn gue mo dapet TOEFL 600 dan bisa kuliah di Harvard atau JHU! :D Nah kan katanya kemarin tuh premierenya This Is It, film dokumenternya Michael Jackson. GUE MO NONTOOOOON!!!! Gila gue penasaran gue pengen liat gmn MJ dance dan nyanyi selama bbrp hari sebelum kematiannya :'( gue pengeeeeen dan coba kalo di situ ada anak2nya pasti gue tmbh pengen nonton.

Speaking of, gue lagi keingetan Kathy, nih... Ngga tau Kathy siapa? Hmm bagus deh hihi ada kok di entry gue yg udah lama bgt gitu. Haha pokoknya gue lagi mikir keanya Kathy ama gue tuh aslinya punya 'sesuatu'. Bukan dlm arti mistis atau apapun itu ya, tp gue sih ngerasanya ada sesuatu diantara gue sama Kate yg menyebabkan (untuk saat ini) gue ngga akan bs lepas dari dia, dan begitu jg dengan dia. Mungkin aja sih Kate ngga pengen sama sekali ada hubungan apapun dgn gue tp setelah gue pikir2 lagi, untuk bbrp hal, ada banyak hal yg mirip atau sama persis antara gue dgn Kate. You can't run away from this fact, and neither can I. Gue bukan ngerasa bermasalah atau apa dengan keadaan gue sm Kate yang sebenernya ada bbrp kemiripan yg cukup untuk ngeyakinin diri gue bahwa sebenernya kita cukup sama dlm bbrp hal, tp gue cuma heran aja.

Ntar2 gue bkl cerita lagi deh soal Kate Everett hihi. See ya!

Favorite Quotes/Song Lyrics

I have only known her for two years. But if you took every moment, every moment -- if you stretched them end to end, they'd reach forever.

You don't love someone because they're perfect. You love them in spite of the fact that they're not.

My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult



I met somebody cute and funny. Got each other and that's funny

Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) - Lady Gaga



And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

You Belong with Me - Taylor Swift



Piece me back together when I fall apart. Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

1 2 3 4 - Plain White T's



Don't call your mother. 'Cause now we're partners in crime

Waking Up in Vegas - Katy Perry



I cannot live without books.

Thomas Jefferson



Live out your imagination, not your history

Stephen Covey


Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave

A. A. Milne



I believe that one of life's greatest risks is never daring to risk

Oprah Winfrey



Doctors are sadist who like to play God and watch lesser people scream

Bren MacGuff, Juno



What if love wasn't the act of finding what you were missing but the give-and-take that made you both match?

You couldn't have strength without weakness, you couldn't have light without dark, you couldn't have love without loss.

The Tenth Circle - Jodi Picoult



When you love someone, you say their name different. Like it's safe inside your mouth

Handle With Care - Jodi Picoult (I took this from a website... want the book so badly!)



If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave the world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.

Michael Jackson



Maybe it's too much, but I love them!

Double Damn

So it turns out that the post I've just written was placed in............. October 1st! Isn't that great? Like, honestly, I didn't think that it would go THERE.

I made Twitter, but somehow it feels like a bit of boring. I mean, we just write some kind of status/shoutout/tweet and reply other tweets there, too. No quizzes, no games, just that. Blank. I think if I don't see something really cool from Twitter I'll stop using my Twitter account unless it is totally needed.


I want sushi and frozen yogurt

Damn

Aaaah shit my last entry was somewhat stupidly deleted iiihh Blogspot lameeeeeee



Think I'm gonna try to study in a few minutes. I have to stop this stupid thought. I have to STUDY and LEARN for UN!

Alta

Last night was the first time I saw him. He had white skin that could be compared to Snow White. He had a little round face, with chubby cheeks. He had the warmest body I had ever known. He had the most miraculous smile. He looked like his father. He was just like his father's toddler self. He was about two and a half years old. He charmed me the first time we met.

He made me smile. He reminded me of his father. He strengthen my body. He gave me the spark of happiness I didn't know before.

He didn't tell me that he was my son, for I didn't tell him that I strongly felt and believed that I was his mother. All I knew was that when he smiled at me and I smiled back, we knew that we were connected. I knew that he was mine. He knew. I could see his father inside him, and that made me very grateful.

I have only seen him once in my dream. I know that he might not be real. I know that there is a possibility that he might not be my son, and I might not be his mother. But I can't explain it. I feel a connection between me and him, even though he is not real. I hope that he is not real yet. Now I know why all mothers feel that their newborns are the loveliest. Now I know why all mothers fall in love with their newborns the first time they see them. Because even though I am not a mother, I felt that love for the child I saw in my dream. The child I believed to be mine and his. I loved him. I love him, even though I might not be able to see him anymore in my dreams. I love him, although he might not be real. I could still feel it inside my heart and through my veins. I love you, Alta. Even if you're not real and I cannot see you anymore, I will always love you. I know that.

Today :D

Hey all people! Today I just won the first place in Spelling Bee Competition of EF Permata Hijau! :D I am so and very happy. I wasn't really planning to win, actually, but when I got into the quarter final round, I started to be, like, really wanted to win. I wished I could get into the semifinal, along with Sakinah and Mutiara, the only girls I was really close to in that competition. I'm gonna tell you all about today!

First, I arrived at school at about 8.00 am, then I saw Shasha, Firza, Dpks, Sakinah, Nabila, and Anya. About a few minutes later, Shasha asked us (including me) to go to Circle K, and she was excluding Anya haha. I believe that everyone would understand that, right? Then, I went to C-K along with them all, and we tried to avoid Anya haha. I bought Milo, and I drank it pretty fast.

About thirty minutes later, we went to ITC Permata Hijau by a seventh-grader's car, haha. When we got there it was still very dark. It looked as if we came too early. And you know what? There was only Labschool that came for the competition in Group C (7th grade-9th grade). Oh God, this means that if we didn't win, Labschool still would win through other kids! -___- Then, we met Fidel and Nindhi and Gita. We re-registered ourselves and we waited for the competition to begin. As we wait, we practiced some words from the pocket dictionary I brought. After that the committees called us to come for a while and said that Group A would be competing so Group B and C had to get out of the arena for a while until it is our turn. Thus, me, Shasha, Dpks, Gita and Fidel came downstairs to buy ice cream in McDonald's. There, we all bought McFlurry, except, well, Anya. Then, we waited again, and finally it was the time for us to compete! The words were really hard. Honestly, they really were. But thankfully, I got to the quarter final with Sakinah and Mutiara! :D:D

After that we had lunch at Es Teler 77, I ate Fried Rice but I didn't finish it because I felt my stomach was full. Then, we (Sakinah, me, Anya) got back to the arena and we waited until our turn to compete again. The quarter final was a bit of easier. The words weren't as hard as the first round. Then, we waited (again) until the names of the finalists were announced. Too bad that they announced it just before the final round, thus making us so thrilled. I was really happy that my name was called after Igar. That means I would win! :D:D:D

(I was in the middle :D)

In the final round, me, Igar, and Rifqi had to take a piece of paper that contains the word we had to spell. The total was four words. Me and Igar got all four words spelled correctly, while Rifqi spelled only three words correctly. Thus, a competition was held between me and Igar. Igar got a really hard word I couldn't even remember or spell it. He couldn't spell it. I got the word GOVERNMENTAL!! I spelled it correctly, and I won the first place!! :D:D:D Happy so much!

(the first winner hihi and that's Miss Lisa who gave me the prize)


(Three winners! :D)

One thing's for sure: I was very happy. This is the first achievement I got in JHS, and I love it. I have just made my mother and father proud of me. I took this competition because of Muhammad Irfan Perdana! Thanks a lot dear brother :D!

EARTHQUAKE!

I was just playing some Lady Gaga videoclip which is called Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) when I felt that my body was shaking too hard. "Is my body really shaking this weird because of the song?" Then I finally realized that it wasn't my body: it was my house!! I quickly said to myself: "Earthquake!!"

I ran out of my house and I didn't care about my housemaid. I know that this sounds so selfish and careless, but sometimes we all do such thing, right? I saw my neighbors. One of them asked to me: "It was an earthquake, right?" I said: "I dunno. I just felt that everything was shaking."

I came back to my house after a few short while. I made sure that it was safe, although I didn't know how I could be sure....

Looklet.com

Hey all people! You know what? I've just finished my tests HOORAYYY!!! But too bad that I have three remedial tests, because of my Science, History, and Computer tests. And you know what? The three of them are 60s!!!! Science is 66, History is 68, and Computer is 64. Damn!!! But hell, that's the aim of learning, right? (am I correct with the grammar whatsoever?) To fail is to learn, and to lose is to win, right? Nobody has ever won anything without losing before the win.

Now, I'm gonna tell you all people about my Looklet account. It's like a styling website, you know. You make an account there, and you can publish your own styles there. You'll know how many of your looks that people like. Click here to open my Looklet account. Here's some of my favorite looks (and they are all created by ME haha)

Crash The Beige Party (this reminds me of White Party in Gossip Girl and manga Candy Candy ;p oh and this is my super duper extra favorite all time!)



Don't Care (you know what? I made this when I remembered a friend I had never met for the fourteen years of my life. She's my Facebook friend, and you know what? I have never even heard her voice. But we are a bit of close, amazingly hihi. Guess who? The initial is T :))



Duchess (this one is my favorite, because it reminds me of Georgiana, Duchess of Devonshire :D)



In Disguise (this is actually a female paparazzi, but too bad the camera is hidden because of the flowers....)



Princess (my super favorite after the 'Beige' :D I love dresses, you know)



I Thought The Theme Was Blue (all-blue, and actually this reminds me of Paris Hilton. I have a Paris Hilton look, actually. Here's the Paris Hilton)



Paris Hilton (ewwww, even though I am the one who made this, I hate this because it's too all-pink. The all-blue is better because it's got some silver too)

So, guys, please check my account on Looklet! Click the heart if you like some of my looks! See ya! :D

The Tenth Circle: Synopsis

Hey all people! Actually I have tests for tomorrow, but I still open my blog and write things haha I am so not a good example of a middle-schooler. Now, while I'm writing this, I am enjoying a bowl of meatballs ahaha and it's pretty spicy so I drink a lot hihi. I'm gonna give you a synopsis of one of Jodi Picoult's novels: The Tenth Circle.


Fourteen-year-old Trixie Stone is heartbroken. Jason Underhill, her senior who is also her boyfriend, breaks up with her. Devastated, she creates scars on her arms using broken mirror and her father's razor. Her best friend, Zephyr, tells her that if she wants Jason to be with her again, she'll have to make him jealous when she is with another guy. Zephyr says that she can do it in her house, where she is having a party with hockey players, including Jason. The party includes some sex games, but Trixie manages to avoid them. Instead, she plays strip poker with Zephyr, Jason, and Jason's friend Moss. She then cries, and Jason kisses her.

When she comes home before dawn, her father, Daniel, sees something suspicious. His daughter is crying and her shirt (which is actually his wife, Laura's shirt) is a bit ripped. Trixie tells him that she has been raped by Jason. He can't believe that his daughter's life becomes dark because of the crime her ex-boyfriend has done to her. This reminds him of his past in Alaska, which is filled by crime as well, like stealing, shoplifting, drinking, etc. He rushes her to the hospital and he phones Laura who says she's at the college where she's teaching to finish some work. What he doesn't know is that Laura has cheated on him with Seth, her own student, and she is not at the college. Instead, she is at Seth's place and they sleep together.

Trixie's life is turned upside down, and so is Jason, Laura, and Daniel's life. Nearly nobody supports or believes Trixie except her parents, because Jason is a popular hockey player and he is known as a good teen. Jason and his family gather every information they could get to prove that he is innocent. Laura feels that if she was not at Seth's and at her own house, the rape wouldn't have happened. Daniel tries to do whatever it takes to protect his child, because he doesn't want Trixie to be harmed anymore.

But before Christmas, Trixie gives different statements with the ones she gave at the hospital at the night she told her father that she was raped. She said that she was still a virgin when Jason raped her, but Jason says that they've had sex before the rape. She says she doesn't really remember about the rape and she was unconscious when Jason did it. Her lawyer says that if it is true, then Jason will be charged not as a child, but as an adult and he will get the same punishment adult rapists get. From her blood test that was taken at the 'night of crime', it is known that the blood contains ketamine, a kind of illegal medicine that will make the drinker unconscious. Jason gets a serious problem with that, and thus he loses a college scholarship because of the case. He blames it on Trixie. Before (or after? I forgot) Christmas, he confronts Trixie, disobeying the rule that he mustn't see her, and asks her of what he has done to her until she does this to him. Daniel punches him, and he runs away. The next day, Jason is found dead after falling from a bridge into the frozen river.

At first, it looks like he committed a suicide. But later on, it is clear that he didn't fall accidentally, but someone made him fell and left him to die. The prime suspects are Daniel and Trixie, but through the bloodstain and a single red hair on Jason's watch, the major suspect becomes Trixie alone. Scared and confused, she runs away to Alaska using a fake ID that she steals from a woman she meets in a bus (or train?). When her parents realize that she has vanished, her father believes that she goes to Alaska, the place where he came from. In his childhood, he was mocked because he was the only white child there. In his teen years, his best friend died and everyone in the village believed he killed him. Thus, he ran away and left his past. Now, he has to face his past again to find Trixie.

There, in Alaska, Trixie realizes that what she's done is wrong. She shouldn't have given her virginity to Jason, and she wants to come back to her mom and dad. After she is reconciled with her parents, the police officers come to arrest her because she is suspected as the murderer of Jason.

In the end, it turns out that it was Laura who let Jason fell and died. Too bad her daughter has been arrested in the jail. Daniel says that he is not angry, and they'll fix things together.



This novel is great, but it is a little bit complicated, so you have to read it intensely. I LOVE JODI PICOULT!

Forty Theory

Hey all people! Next Monday would be the first day of Mid-Semester Test a.k.a. UHBT in Labschool, but I haven't studied anything yet hihi. For ninth-graders, we don't have to study Statistics from Math or Electroscope thingies from Physics to do the UHBT. We will have the Tes Paket 1. It is a test given by the school for ninth-graders after we have Paket. Paket is like an additional time of studying at school to prepare us to do the National Final Examination. (sorry if right now I am using a very bad grammar)

The subjects in Paket are Physics, Math, Biology, English, and Bahasa Indonesia. Paket 1 is for the seven-grade lessons, which means we are studying what we had studied about 2 years ago. And next Monday to Friday, we'll have tests that contain seven-grade matters. Which means this is very good if our chairmate is a seventh-grader!! Hahahahahahaha okay now I really am half-insane.

I somewhat have tried to tell myself not to play around and start to study harder. But, well, enough of saying that I'll study really hard, because that comes from inside me, right?

I'm gonna talk about the Forty Theory. Anyone knows about this theory? No one? Well, okay, now I'll tell you all about a theory that suddenly comes into my head. So, the biggest result of UAN (the average after all four scores are combined lalala) is 40, right? Now, imagine if YOU are the one who got that 40. Your parents would cry and they'd be really shocked but extremely proud of you, right? Your friends would say: "God, you're so damn smart I wish I could do it just like you." And all of your family would a bit of bragging you. For example, your granddad would say: "He/she is my grandchild. Did you know that he/she got 40 for UAN?" And you yourself would be proud and happy.

If you got 40, then there is 90% of chance that your parents would say: "We're proud of you. You said you wanted to go to X public high school? Then you can! Or Y public high school, which is the best in town? Then you CAN! Here, let me take your papers and Dad will drive you there! They will accept you as a student!!!"

Although the reality might not be that extreme, but it is true, right? If you got 40, then your parents would be somewhat forced to give you what you want at the time, right? For example: "Mom, Dad, I wanna go to XZ Public High School." Then your dad said: "No, you can't! It's too far from our house and you'll have to work hard to stay there." You could smile and replied: "Dad, I got 40 and I couldn't go to the school I want?" And remember to say 40 very clearly and loudly. There is 92% of chance that your dad would say: "......... Okay, you'll go there."

See? FORTY wins a lot!!! No, not a lot, but nearly EVERYTHING!!!!!




--- okay, now I really am insane... -__-

Jealousy

It comes easily
Like an icy cold wind
It comes like a fire
That could burn everything on its way

It could give us heat
It could break us up
It could tear down the little ribbon
That had tied us together

Some may say that it gives us something
Love is too plain and cold without it
Love is too blank and meaningless without it
And it could tell us how much we love someone

Jealousy, oh, jealousy
You could tear siblings into half
You could tear spouses into two
You could tear friendship into enemies
You could tear relationship into tears


- Farina Chairunnisa, October 6th, 2009


remembering October 6th, 2008, the night we started to do what we do now ;) don't take it negatively guys!

Michael My Love hihi

Hey people! Sorry if I write too many of Michael Jackson, but I really am still in love with him haha. He's one of my childhood idols, you know, thus his death really was a thing for me. I have two people with name Michael that I love. First, it's Michael Jackson. Second, it is someone whom I have given that nickname hihi. Can't tell you more about the second Michael. I'm gonna tell you about my great-uncle Michael Jackson haha :p.

I have been so in love with him ever since I was........ nine years old, hihi. So actually he wasn't really my childhood idol, because if I were to call it 'childhood' idol I should have fallen in love with him since I was, like, between four and eight. Whatever. The first Michael's song I know was Heal the World. And the sixth-grader Gita Gutawa sang it in a school's art show. Yeah, I attended the same school she attended. I felt that the song was cute, and I asked my mom about the song, and she bought me a DVD that contains some of Michael's videoclips. I fell in love with him.

I played that DVD pretty often. 25th of June ago, I was shocked to hear that he died. His untimely death devastated millions of people in the world who loved him so much. I couldn't believe that he just........ went away.

His memorial service was really cool, even though I didn't watch it completely because I fell asleep on my couch when I was watching it. In the morning my mom told me that it was great. She told me that Michael's daughter Paris talked. She told me that it was very sad but beautiful. I love you, Michael. :) <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Favorite Michael Jackson's Songs:


1. You Are Not Alone

This song is really cool. I mean, well, the song really gives me something. It helps me to be strong when I feel alone and sad. What I don't really like about the song is the video clip. There's Michael and his then-wife Lisa Marie Presley, and the scenes are...... pretty provocative, you know. But however, I still love it!




2. Billie Jean

This song is REALLY GREAAAAAT! I like the intro so much. And if you'd like to know, I lip-synched this song after my lessons in BP. And ridiculously I fell to the floor when I was trying to do the Billie Jean dance. Pinka witnessed that, and all we did was laughing. Thankfully I danced in the musholla and there were only me and her there. And look; he was still a cute black here!! He's cuter when his skin was black. When he had become white he looked like............ weirdy-o.





3. I Just Can't Stop Loving You

It is a very beautiful love ballad. It features the voice of a female singer named Siedah Garrett. She wrote Michael's Man in The Mirror as well. There is no video clip of this song, but I assure you this is a lovely song.



Actually there are only three Michael's songs I deeply love. But the others are also great, you know. Like Beat It, Smooth Criminal, Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough, Rock With You, Leave Me Alone, The Way You Make Me Feel, Remember The Time, Heal the World, Black or White, Man in The Mirror, etc...

I Wish I Could

I am currently addicted to/want to have/want to do................................

LADY GAGA




MICHAEL JACKSON



iPOD 80 GB (sorry if I follow anyone)


VAIO GOLD (dunno why, but gold seems more gorgeous than white :p)



SHOPPING, haha





but most of all, I really want to go to...




SMAN 8 JAKARTA


or...


SMAN 70 JAKARTA


then, I want to go to......




HARVARD UNIVERSITY!
I surely hope I could go to the med school! But if I couldn't go to Harvard for med, then I'll go to............................


DUKE UNIVERSITY! (the med school's is one of the best in US, so I'll give it a try haha)



but I want to study International Affairs as well, so if I want to go to college that gives best for both International Affairs and Medicine, my top choice is.................




JOHNS HOPKINS UNIVERSITY!



Sorry if this post is a bit of...... not important. But this really means something for me. Wish for me to succeed on getting my wishes, okay? :D

Every Name's Got Their Own Story

Most people are proud of their names, are they not? Even if their name is a very common name like (no offense) Nisa, Adit, Kate, John, blablabla. But each name gives something to the holder. Even aliases also give the holder something. Like when you nickname someone with 'Bluebell', I believe there must be something that makes you name him/her 'Bluebell', no matter how silly the reason is. I'm sorry if I put the name 'Lady Fafa' here, but surely I have a reason.

I believed I had something with me, and although that 'thing' wasn't too powerful or such, it existed. I told about it to some of my friends, and one of my friends went: "God, that was pretty cool! I guess you should have a new name. Like Madam Sahara or such." Then she said that I could use the name 'Lady Fafa', so it happened. I liked it, though, albeit the name looked as if I was a Lady Gaga wannabe. But, hey, isn't it better to admit that you ARE following someone's style than not admitting so? At least that means you're honest to yourself and everyone.

I had this very weird habit of giving aliases to people. Well, it was pretty useful, actually, when you wanted to talk about someone but not wanting that one to know. Some aliases I created were: Excel, Bernie, SKSD, Cutie, Albino, Planet, Pohon, S-Tee, etc. There are too many of aliases I made, thus I could not put them all here, could I? And, like the title, every name's got their own story. It goes the same way with aliases. Why did I nickname someone with Excel? Or Albino? Or even Cutie (which is pretty lame)? Well, I can't tell you. The history of the names are quite complicated, so I think it is wise for me not to tell you all. But one thing's for sure: I believe that every name is special, so be proud of your name. Your mom and dad wouldn't have given you your name without any special meanings, would they? All parents want the best for their children.




P.S.: Does the nickname COFFEE sound good? xoxo

Wanna Follow?

Hello people! Here I am, the great storyteller muahahaha. Sorry if I act like a real weirdy-o, but I figure out that this is one way for me to show the way I feel haha, what a reason.

Well, anyhow I am gonna tell you all about Friday, 2nd of October, 2009, when I had one of the best times with my girls. Well, not all of my girls were there with me actually. My bestie Ayu wasn't there with me and others so I felt a bit of losing a small piece of fun. However, I still had fun with Tania and Pinka, my loves hihi. We talked about nonsense things for a short while at Langsat Corner after school, then we finally talked about our newest celebrity, the REAL follower! I'm gonna refer the follower with 'she' and call the follower 'Xerox' okay?

She is our biggest fan. She adores us. Maybe because I'm Lady Fafa she follows me and my friends, haha yeah you can think that this is a bit of stupid. Talk the way we talk, do the things we do. She feels she's important. She thinks she has always been the last to be called, but the way she says it is...... eurgh damn! I know you don't want to know it.

You think you're a sweet addictive drug? You wanna know what I'm thinking? I think you're just a rotten raisin. Wanna follow her? Wanna follow me? WHOA, DREAM BIG!!

The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas

I've just renewed my blog, y'all! So now the header is no longer 'farina and her life', but 'Lady Fafa'. Haha, that is my nickname. My friend Neza gave that nick to me. The story of that name is.... pretty long, so I believe I can't tell you all about it right now.

So I am writing this entry/post after I renewed my blog. My mom and I are watching The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas right now. It is about a German boy who befriends with a Jewish boy. It is set on World War II, when Hitler ruled and Holocaust was done. Here's the picture of it.



Honestly this movie really is touching and tragic. The main character's Bruno, the German boy. He befriends with a Jewish boy named Shmuel when he moves from his house in town to the countryside. He at first doesn't know that Shmuel is Jewish and he is imprisoned there because he's a Jew. Well, I can't tell you the rest of the movie, because that means I'm giving you the spoiler, right? However, I must tell you guys that you should watch this. This is a sad yet touching and great movie.

Random

It is like it could never end
Like it is something no one could help
Whatever happened to this
I wish I did understand

It is burned too easily
Fragile
Black
Gray
Painful
Great
Stupid

Clearly, I was a big fan of a wrong person